Years of rejection have killed so many parts of me. Since I have been unable to fulfill my dreams I have created a slew of problems in my life. Some of these problems are low self-esteem, depression/anxiety, and intense social phobia. Honestly, I can state that I truly hated myself in every way. I could never explain how much I hated being tortured by having to make it through another monotonous day. All of these negative forces stole my life. These problems also hindered my ability to be passionate and creative.
Starting today I choose to live. I choose to wake up from the nightmare. I choose to conquer all obstacles thrown my way.
My goal in life has always been to obtain freedom . Music has always been a way for me to feel free. I have achieved freedom through the headphones of my Ipod, attempting to play guitar/drums, and going to see live shows. There is a lyric from the song The Wind by Cat Stevens that expresses this freedom perfectly. Stevens wrote, "I let my music take me where my heart wants to go."
Today, I am making a commitment to create a better life. I will use forms of freedom like music to begin this process. Through freedom I will grow as a man. Freedom will allow my passion, creativity, and life to flourish. Freedom will give me the keys to unlock the doors I have always desired to enter.
This post is the first step to a brighter future.
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